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Chapter Eleven, Part Three

September 3rd, 2010 | Comments: 0

The department smells like cigarette butts. It’s busy for an early afternoon; it takes me a befuddling few seconds to find an open hook on the coat rack. Usually more of these men would be out on patrol. Instead, everyone’s either in the middle of a phone call or waiting for one. The interrogation room’s closed and occupied; Doyle’s office is shuttered off from the world. Only Santos notices our entrance, and he acknowledges it with a mere wave and a grunt on his way to the break room.

“We’re working on a rash of new drug leads,” Dave says, putting a hand on my shoulder and speaking to me in confidence. “Marko’s little incident was the talk of the local news last night, and all that press got our tip lines going. You know how it is.”

“There’s nothing better than an idiot doing something stupid and violent to drum up our business.” My desk is covered in various colors of paper. To an outsider, it might look like I’ve been gone for a month. “And yet Doyle still had you working the Varros suicide?”

Dave stops in his tracks at the name, looking at me with a twitch in his eye until he’s sure I’m not going to start talking secrets here. “Yeah,” he manages to say. “Told me to make it a priority until it was closed.”

“What a surprise.” I begin to form stacks from the paper in front of me, crafting a hierarchy of importance on the fly. It doesn’t take much to imagine Doyle getting a call from one of his superiors about the case, right after that superior received a call from Flytech’s military mouthpiece, Captain Frost.

“You know Doyle,” Dave says, a little too loudly. “Always the completionist.”

“The drug thing’s your dead horse,” I say, matching his volume. We’re acting like we’re under surveillance, but no one’s so much as glanced in our direction since we walked in. “He should let you beat it.”

Dave laughs, but only for a moment. Something on his desk catches his attention; his eyes droop as he reads. “Hospital report on Janeane. The girl in the drug thing.”

“I know. How is she?” I remember the last time I saw her, with the blood streak on the wall behind her. I remember the mask on her face that I thought I saw, too. I’ve almost convinced myself that sleep deprivation explains that better than anything else.

“Stable.” He folds the report and puts it in his coat.

I wait a moment, until I’m sure he won’t elaborate. “That’s a hell of a lot better than dead,” I say.

He glances at me as I cough into my hand. “Yeah,” he says.

“Burleigh!”

I crane my neck. Lieutenant Doyle is standing just inside his office, holding the door open. He’s trying to grow that ugly, patchy beard again. I’ve told Dave before, though he’s never laughed, that Doyle thinks it’s the best defense against all those chins.

“Yes, sir?”

“Could I see you in my office, detective?”

I turn to Dave. “Run those books some time today. I’m going to get out of here once I’m finished talking to the lieutenant.”

Dave nods. “Alright, then. Say hi to Katie for me, yeah?”

It takes me a moment to craft the response. “You do the same for Rachel,” I say. “Tell her I might even buy the tux, if you keep asking nicely.” I hope that ends the tangent. I’m already walking away from the desk; he can’t ask me about Sarah. Not now.

I’m half a step into Doyle’s office when Dave calls back to me, flipping a hand in my direction. “You’re buying the damn tux,” he says. “If you show up in that coat, I’m asking the priest to kick your ass out.”

Chapter Eleven, Part Two

August 30th, 2010 | Comments: 0

“Maybe,” I say, “but that’s just the means to the end. It’s the facilitation of a cover up.”

“That doesn’t make any sense. Flytech wouldn’t be interested in just helping a pedophile cover up his crimes.” Dave shakes his head; he’s smiling, but he’s not amused. “Those ‘means’ you’re talking about? That’s their crime. Shit, they might as well have lobotomized Frank.” The smile disappears, and Dave looks out the window, towards the highway and the cloudless sky. “I want to know how they did it, I want to know why they did it, and I want to know what they’re planning next.”

“Next?” The hunger must be slowing me down; Dave’s moving through all the steps, climbing the ladder without checking to see if I’m lagging behind. “You’re looking at it like it’s a conspiracy?”

“Aren’t you?” Dave laughs. He’s on an adrenaline rush; I’ve seen it before, back when he tried to explain to me how Los Pintos was controlled by a phantom drug kingpin and his minions. Dave loves his conspiracies. “Come on, how tired are you, Jake?”  ”You said it yourself when you spoke to that shrink. They have a military contract and they have their claws in the police department. They’ve cut off suspicion at the source. She told you this was the experimental phase. Well, if this is the early testing, what the fuck is the final product?”

I shake my head and let myself smile. It would have been smart to bring Dave on this, even if he hadn’t found the journal. His mind’s right to tackle this. “You’re probably right, Dave, but I don’t think it changes what we do next. We still need to prove that Frank’s the real Dollhouse Killer.”

Dave nods. He’s relaxed again, resigning himself to taking a thoughtful bite of his salad.”Sure. It’s the only concrete lead we have on their process.”

“Right.” I listen for a moment to the sound of some children on the other side of the restaurant. They’re complaining about the toy in their meals, trying to steal each others’ bounty. My tray is now a cratered war zone of unwrapped paper and grease stains; I’d rather belch than cough at the moment, which is, relatively speaking, a wonderful feeling. “I’m going to talk to Stacy Pierce.”

“Frank’s last victim? Why?”

“She’s the last person we know for a fact to have had contact with Frank before Flytech got to him.”  “The police couldn’t have even touched Frank, or else he would have been somewhere in the San Alto case file.”

Dave shakes his head. “She’s a kid, Jake.” He takes a sip from his bottle of iced tea. “I’d imagine she was in shock during the entire abduction. She won’t know anything.”

He’s right, of course. I shrug. “It’s still the best lead we have.”

Dave nods and wipes his mouth with the only napkin that I didn’t steal from his tray. “Well, follow it tomorrow. You’ve been through enough hell so far. We can add ‘conversation with pedophilic-killer victim’ to the checklist after you’ve rested up.”

“Let’s get back to the department first. I should make a cameo appearance, for the lieutenant’s sake, before I head home.” I stand up, pulling on the coat I’ve draped over the seat behind me. “You should look into the books on Flytech. We’ll want corporate hierarchy and history, other connections, whatever else you can find. I haven’t had the time to do that legwork since this whole thing started.”

“Glad to know you’re relegating me to the desk, Jake.” Dave’s grinning like a coke fiend in the middle of a fix. He’s at the heart of something huge and he knows it; if this goes somewhere, he’ll be done chasing after ghosts in meth labs. “I’ll officially close the case on the Varros suicide. They’ll know what we have when we’re ready to show it to them.”

“Perfect,” I say. For the first time in days, I feel prepared for what’s next. “Now let’s get moving.”

Chapter Eleven, Part One

August 27th, 2010 | Comments: 0

Frank shouldn’t have been worried about one thing, at least: the kid janitor at the burger joint gives everyone that dirty look. He gave one to me, at least, though he could just as well have been casting judgment for the pile of sandwiches and French fries on my overburdened plastic tray.

There was never an Anna Varros, and Frank had no children. None of his own. That much I knew, even before Dave told me he’d checked.

There are too many people here: families with screeching children and oversized parents and everyone yelling at everyone else to get out of the way or to listen up. On any other day I’d prefer eating in the middle of a sewage pipe, but right now I’m too hungry to give a shit about the circus. Still, I take a seat as far from the chaos as I can manage, at a two-seat booth pressed against the window, and I eat the way dogs eat.

I’ve half-finished the first burger by the time Dave sits across from me and opens the plastic top on his salad. We’ve already been speaking for an hour; I’ve been doing most of the talking. He knows almost everything that I know, but I don’t know what he thinks about any of it yet.

“Jesus, Jake,” he says. I don’t bother to look up to see if he’s amused or disgusted. “When was the last time you ate?”

“I don’t know,” I say between bites. “Hard to say.”

He doesn’t say anything, which I take as a cue to finish the hamburger. The beef is thin and dry and there’s too much mayonnaise slathered against the flimsy lettuce. It’s the most delicious hamburger I’ve ever eaten.

“So,” Dave says, “what was your plan going to be, before I called?”

“I was going to call you, actually.” I stop to wipe my mouth with one of Dave’s napkins. I didn’t take the time to grab any of my own. “And the plan is that I’m going to prove that Frank killed those girls. Those bastards at Flytech let a guilty man go free. Not only that, but they let another man confess to the guilty man’s crimes. That’s more than enough for me.”

Dave stares at me. I don’t think he cares much about my food intake anymore. “That’s what you care about?”

“What do you mean?”

He sets his fork down and folds his fingers together. His elbows are pinned against the edge of the table. “They didn’t let Frank ‘go free,’ Jake. They tore into him first. They screwed him up.”

I shrug. “They stuck him in an interrogation device. I was in there, too, remember? They got the information he wasn’t willing to give, and then they just let him go.” I start to unwrap the greasy packaging on another burger. “Or he escaped, I don’t know.”

“He didn’t get out free, God damn it.” He’s loud enough that I hold up my hand. We look together at the crowds around us, but no one’s looking back at us. It’s hard to alarm the cattle as they’re feeding.

I watch Dave. His eyes are pinpoints and his left hand is balled into a trembling fist. He’s more intent on this than I was, probably because he has more of the energy required for outrage.

Dave continues, though he cranes his neck closer to the center of the table. “You read the journal, Jake. They fucked his mind. Frank knew he was Julian Varros. He had a whole family back story that he believed wholesale. Then he didn’t know who the fuck he was, and then he shot his brains into a broom closet. Flytech did that to him.”

Chapter Ten, Part Nine

August 23rd, 2010 | Comments: 0

Horrible in this apartment. Must go to work soon. Library is cool and wet. Bedroom feels like a jail cell. Chains on ankles, chains on temples. Jake Burleigh’s waiting out there. He wants everything to be over with today. Wants to move on to someone else. Needs to keep hurting people. He’ll never stop. It’s going to end today.

Journal still feels better. Writing now like skipping stones. Skssh crssh kasshh splot. Skims pain from the surface. Static on brain cells kills fear. Only in the moment but that’s enough.

Legs won’t move very well. Joints are sludge. Crawling’s the only thing that works inside the room. Tried to hide under the desk in the living room, but it didn’t feel safe. Felt stupid. Kept bumping skull against the wood. The corner with the recyclables is a much better place for now. The head feels just like all the crumpled paper.

The wall is creaking. Sound must be from the next room over. It’s Jake Burleigh. He’s ready to finish it. Not safe at all here now. The library is the only place that’s safe. Broom closet upstairs is dark and empty. Safer that way. Anything else hurts too much now.

Trying to think about why Jake Burleigh is doing this. Can’t remember. Nothing ever forms thought. One thing though. A young woman’s voice and a white room. Thought sticks where nothing else does. Woman said, everything’s going to be better soon. Can’t remember her face. Jake Burleigh stole her face.

Faceless smile remains. She smiled. She said it would be better, said it more than once. Put a jar on the brain and said it was going to be better.

Another creak in the wall. Louder this time. Jake Burleigh’s going to break through the wall. Makes sense; it’s the easiest way to get here. No tricks, just brute force and murder. He’ll use his great horns to tear down the drywall and break the room in two. It’s not safe here.

A man knocked on the door just now and said: “Ahreyu okay misservarros?”

Those aren’t real words. Can’t answer the question. It doesn’t make sense. Head full of sand. The knocking might have been a battering ram. Maybe the man was Jake Burleigh in disguise. Speaking in tongues. Any tricks to get inside, like the devil. Gave up knocking and calling, at least. The wall’s still creaking.

Have to run soon. Survive. Survive. Survive. Can’t do good work like this. All there is is good work and new heights. Smiling faces and congratulations. How can Jake Burleigh take them all away?

He can’t. He can’t. He can’t take it. He’s stolen everything else. Won’t let him take this. Hurts to think about. Hurts to think. Legs won’t move but they have to. Jake Burleigh won’t expect an escape through the front door. Not now. Not when he’s coming from the other room. Have to go. It’s possible to make it, leaving right now.

Woman’s voice was right. Broom closet isn’t far away. Everything’s going to be better soon.

Chapter Ten, Part Eight

August 20th, 2010 | Comments: 0

Took an hour to walk to work. Ran most of the way. Certain that Burleigh was waiting around every corner, also couldn’t remember which way work was from the apartment. Kept making sharp turns. Gun’s in the apartment; if Burleigh comes outside, there’s no escape. Didn’t want to let him have the satisfaction.

Mr. Martin left a note for Julian Varros. Yellow paper stamped to the front door:

“Julian, I’ll be out of town for a day or two. Use the key I gave you and take care of the place while I’m gone, would you you? – William”

Note sounds wrong. Mr. Martin wouldn’t leave his library without more reason. Good person. Wouldn’t want to stop doing work. Maybe Jake Burleigh wrote the note, killed Mr. Martin. Maybe Mr. Martin’s being held prisoner in some far away place until Jake Burleigh’s finished. Impossible to tell.

No matter what, can’t save Mr. Martin while Jake Burleigh’s around. Had to run inside the building once the keys unlocked the door. Had to lock it from inside.

Still didn’t feel safe, not in the main room. Too much space, too many windows. Anything could see inside. The broom closet was safer because it doesn’t have windows. Total darkness inside with the door closed, but that felt good, too. One less thing to worry about. Very safe.

Brain pools like tar. Splat splat splat. No sounds inside. Tried to remember something. Belched. Felt sick.

Had to work eventually. Can’t be at work without doing work because that’s not helping anyone. Did it in shifts. Five minutes or so outside twenty minutes in the closet back and forth. It was enough to keep calm for a while. Soothing. After a few hours it was too hard to go out even for the five minutes. Stayed inside the broom closet, where it’s warm and moist and safe.

Jake Burleigh. Jake Burleigh. Jake Burleigh. He’s a monster, a big shark with horns the size of mountains. Gargantuan fish with eyes that eat cities. He’s a man, too. A bad cop. Does what he wants because he can and wants to hurt other people. Nothing worse than hurting other people except not helping them.

And he doesn’t help people. He hurts them and laughs at them and steals everything away from them. Snatch stash run joy. Thinking about it puts too much pressure on the brain stem but nothing else makes thoughts except that there’s still some good work to do. Can’t do good work inside the broom closet. Jake Burleigh’s set the trap. He won’t even let other people do good work.

There’s noise outside. It’s not Jake Burleigh; it’s bawling, moaning, whimpering. Creeeen mreeeeen keeeeeen. Some goddamn stray animal maybe. Wish it would leave. Head hurts enough already without the whining of a goddamn useless stray.

Eventually remembered the gun in the apartment. Should have brought it to the closet. Should have brought it for safety. Stupid. Had to run home and find the gun and cradle it and make sure that it was loaded. It was. Jake Burleigh hadn’t ruined it.

Shouldn’t hurt people but Jake Burleigh hurts everyone. Can’t hesitate if there’s ever a chance to stop him.

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